30 things #2

Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears

1) Dentist

When I was younger I went to a dentist who was very well known.  Unfortunatley he was having a bad day when I went in to fix a small cavity and wasn't focused.  He began working on a healthy tooth without any freezing.  I was screaming asking him to stop because I was in a lot of pain.  He stopped after what felt like hours, although I am sure it was only a few minutes looked at me and said "stop crying you are fine, I'll give you a minute but then we have to get that tooth fixed".  When he came back he realized he was on the wrong side of my mouth, and had not put any freezing in any where.  He said "sorry" froze me and proceded to work.  From this moment on I have been scared to go to the dentist.  Lucky for me I have found an amazing dentist who has been very accomodating and helpful and supportive during all my dental procedures

2) Being alone

My parents weren't able to have more than one child.  This is terrifying to me.  I realize many people with siblings don't always see the postivies, but when you are an only child the positives of having siblings are strong.  I don't have other family to get togehter with for holidays (yes we have a large extended family and I am sure they will include me, but it's not the same as sibling holiday traditions).

3) Right now it's figuring out a way to not feel divided or burning out

I am not sure how to show my love for family, friends and work without burning out.  This fear has always been here, however, continues to grow as I have two beautiful children, many friends that I have to go weeks without talking to, aging parents, and great husband, in-laws - that are going to need help and I'm not sure if we will be the ones there, a job I love (but even that job divides me into different sections).  At times I am at my breaking point and I'm not sure what to do.