So I realize my last post was a little discouraging.........
Not really what I wanted this blog to be about! I want it to be upbeat and postive.
I lurk on other blogs and there is one I read and this blog is very negative and I get down reading it, so my hope is that for the most part this blog will put a smile on peoples face!
So if you know me you know that our curtains are open 24 hours a day. We never shut them, I am sure neighbours have seen some interesting sites. We often have dance parties in our house, and they sometimes strike at bath time, or after a morning shower or just as supper is cooking so you never know what you might see when you come to our house hold. My daugther's favorite dance is the "naked dance" she does this every night much to my husbands dismay! This morning I am teaching the yougest a new dance - she is too young to get it but she laughs and laughs so it's fun! Turkey and the straw - I am so glad my house isn't filled with cameras.
I've had a great few days spending lots of time with friends and which I love! Friday was spent with a dear friend we had tea/wine and a visit. We've been friends for a while now and I feel I can tell her anything - but really my life is quite boring compared to hers :) Then we were busy all weekend, Saturday was a catch up day and date night! Sunday I went to Winnipeg and went dress shopping with a great friend, we haven't known each other for too long but we are very similar and I know I can trust her with everything/anything! I am in her wedding and as much as I hate dress shopping it turned out well all dresses were found and I left not feeling huge like I usually do, infact my perception of myself is very skewed! Monday my husband went out. Tuesday was not a good night but Wednesday we had a date night again. Which bring us to today and we have friends coming over for tea/coffee/beer, Friday again friends are coming over for beer. My parents are coming out on Saturday and bringing my great uncle bob to meet A - he hasn't met her yet and I am excited. I have many memories of my uncle, but the one that always sticks out is when he used to chase me around when I was little threatening to spit chew (tobbacco stuff he used to chew and spit) in my hair. My hair was blonde, very blonde and he always told me it would turn it black.....Yes I know I do still love the man:) My aunt would defend me and we would go back to baking homemade buns. Sunday is up in the air, but we might go see a little baby and although my baby is only 5 months old, she seems big compared to other babies:)
Thursday, 28 February 2013
Sunday, 24 February 2013
Marriage
It has been a long week!
My husbands family started doing an annual weekend away for all of us, this is the 2nd year. It was just as disorganised (maybe even more so) than last year but I guess when you have 10 of us all together it is to be expected. This year we each had our own space to retreat too and that was a blessing.
I am not going to go into the positive and negatives about this weekend, as others may read this and I don't want to hurt peoples feelings and today I would hurt peoples feelings. I am sure it's just the mood I am in.
Marriage is hard, not easy and I think people give up to easily, but how long do you try to make it work. How long before you and your partner begin resenting each other, how long do you fight before your children pick up on it.
This weekend really made me look at our relationship and think these thoughts. The last year has been tough on us, in part because I think some extended family problems are coming into our relationship - even though we have nothing to do with it. It all comes down to the way people make my husband feel, and they way our children are being treated. We then fight about it, we try to talk about it and then those resentment feelings come into play.
Maybe it's the people we are around, we are friends with 4 different couples who are discussing divorce or are attempting to make things work, so it puts you in that frame of mind......
My husbands family started doing an annual weekend away for all of us, this is the 2nd year. It was just as disorganised (maybe even more so) than last year but I guess when you have 10 of us all together it is to be expected. This year we each had our own space to retreat too and that was a blessing.
I am not going to go into the positive and negatives about this weekend, as others may read this and I don't want to hurt peoples feelings and today I would hurt peoples feelings. I am sure it's just the mood I am in.
Marriage is hard, not easy and I think people give up to easily, but how long do you try to make it work. How long before you and your partner begin resenting each other, how long do you fight before your children pick up on it.
This weekend really made me look at our relationship and think these thoughts. The last year has been tough on us, in part because I think some extended family problems are coming into our relationship - even though we have nothing to do with it. It all comes down to the way people make my husband feel, and they way our children are being treated. We then fight about it, we try to talk about it and then those resentment feelings come into play.
Maybe it's the people we are around, we are friends with 4 different couples who are discussing divorce or are attempting to make things work, so it puts you in that frame of mind......
Sunday, 10 February 2013
I can't do it all
What a ride it has been! I've been able to hold two new babies - I love babies, spend time with friends and watch my kids bond. I believe more time in life should be spent this way.
I have been given the opportunity to teach at a local college and I am not sure. I want to do it. I am really interested in promoting learning, but I am not sure if the timing is right. Especially since the time I am spending with my girls is so precious.
I have to keep telling myself I can't do it all....................
I have been given the opportunity to teach at a local college and I am not sure. I want to do it. I am really interested in promoting learning, but I am not sure if the timing is right. Especially since the time I am spending with my girls is so precious.
I have to keep telling myself I can't do it all....................
30 things #2
Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears
1) Dentist
When I was younger I went to a dentist who was very well known. Unfortunatley he was having a bad day when I went in to fix a small cavity and wasn't focused. He began working on a healthy tooth without any freezing. I was screaming asking him to stop because I was in a lot of pain. He stopped after what felt like hours, although I am sure it was only a few minutes looked at me and said "stop crying you are fine, I'll give you a minute but then we have to get that tooth fixed". When he came back he realized he was on the wrong side of my mouth, and had not put any freezing in any where. He said "sorry" froze me and proceded to work. From this moment on I have been scared to go to the dentist. Lucky for me I have found an amazing dentist who has been very accomodating and helpful and supportive during all my dental procedures
2) Being alone
My parents weren't able to have more than one child. This is terrifying to me. I realize many people with siblings don't always see the postivies, but when you are an only child the positives of having siblings are strong. I don't have other family to get togehter with for holidays (yes we have a large extended family and I am sure they will include me, but it's not the same as sibling holiday traditions).
3) Right now it's figuring out a way to not feel divided or burning out
I am not sure how to show my love for family, friends and work without burning out. This fear has always been here, however, continues to grow as I have two beautiful children, many friends that I have to go weeks without talking to, aging parents, and great husband, in-laws - that are going to need help and I'm not sure if we will be the ones there, a job I love (but even that job divides me into different sections). At times I am at my breaking point and I'm not sure what to do.
1) Dentist
When I was younger I went to a dentist who was very well known. Unfortunatley he was having a bad day when I went in to fix a small cavity and wasn't focused. He began working on a healthy tooth without any freezing. I was screaming asking him to stop because I was in a lot of pain. He stopped after what felt like hours, although I am sure it was only a few minutes looked at me and said "stop crying you are fine, I'll give you a minute but then we have to get that tooth fixed". When he came back he realized he was on the wrong side of my mouth, and had not put any freezing in any where. He said "sorry" froze me and proceded to work. From this moment on I have been scared to go to the dentist. Lucky for me I have found an amazing dentist who has been very accomodating and helpful and supportive during all my dental procedures
2) Being alone
My parents weren't able to have more than one child. This is terrifying to me. I realize many people with siblings don't always see the postivies, but when you are an only child the positives of having siblings are strong. I don't have other family to get togehter with for holidays (yes we have a large extended family and I am sure they will include me, but it's not the same as sibling holiday traditions).
3) Right now it's figuring out a way to not feel divided or burning out
I am not sure how to show my love for family, friends and work without burning out. This fear has always been here, however, continues to grow as I have two beautiful children, many friends that I have to go weeks without talking to, aging parents, and great husband, in-laws - that are going to need help and I'm not sure if we will be the ones there, a job I love (but even that job divides me into different sections). At times I am at my breaking point and I'm not sure what to do.
Tuesday, 5 February 2013
30 things #1
20 things about myself.
This is going to be tough since I did this for my first blog post, but here goes:
1) I am older than my husband - this almost kept me from continuing a relationship with him, I am sure glad love conquered this :)
2) I love children, all children and look forward to spending time with friends that have children, the neighbours children and doing children related activities (I think it's because I am a big kid at heart)
3) I am easily intimidated
4) I had an amazing relationship with both of my grandparents (who have all passed on) and I hope my children will have a great relationship with their grandparents
5) I love bike ridding
6) Weddings always make me cry
7) A treat for me is a blizzard or a pedi-cure, although I love cheesecake as well
8) My favourite toy as a child was a toy farm
9) I love music
10) I play the piano
11) I love baking cupcakes - hate making cookies
12) I have a fear of the dentist and they need to give me lorazapam if they need to do work so I can relax - it stems from a childhood dentist who once didn't freeze my mouth and started working on a tooth.
13) I love to cook
14) I like to plan, my calender is always marked up because I like to look back to see what has happened.
15) My dog is a member of our family, and is treated like that he gets a special b-day supper just like everyone else
16) I love fire - candlelight, bonfires, fireplaces
17) I like going to psychics, I don't believe them, but I really enjoy the experience I have a few friends that indulge me in this activity
18) I love playing badminton, but am not confident enough to join rec league, and I really enjoy my pj evenings.
19) I love chocolate chip cookie dough
20) Christmas is a special time for me and I am looking forward to teaching my kids to feel the same joy and happiness. We watch Christmas shows/movies from December 1st to December 31st. I love looking at lights, I love carols. Christmas makes me giddy.
bonus - I love tilt-a-whirls I laugh until I think I am going to pee my pants
This is going to be tough since I did this for my first blog post, but here goes:
1) I am older than my husband - this almost kept me from continuing a relationship with him, I am sure glad love conquered this :)
2) I love children, all children and look forward to spending time with friends that have children, the neighbours children and doing children related activities (I think it's because I am a big kid at heart)
3) I am easily intimidated
4) I had an amazing relationship with both of my grandparents (who have all passed on) and I hope my children will have a great relationship with their grandparents
5) I love bike ridding
6) Weddings always make me cry
7) A treat for me is a blizzard or a pedi-cure, although I love cheesecake as well
8) My favourite toy as a child was a toy farm
9) I love music
10) I play the piano
11) I love baking cupcakes - hate making cookies
12) I have a fear of the dentist and they need to give me lorazapam if they need to do work so I can relax - it stems from a childhood dentist who once didn't freeze my mouth and started working on a tooth.
13) I love to cook
14) I like to plan, my calender is always marked up because I like to look back to see what has happened.
15) My dog is a member of our family, and is treated like that he gets a special b-day supper just like everyone else
16) I love fire - candlelight, bonfires, fireplaces
17) I like going to psychics, I don't believe them, but I really enjoy the experience I have a few friends that indulge me in this activity
18) I love playing badminton, but am not confident enough to join rec league, and I really enjoy my pj evenings.
19) I love chocolate chip cookie dough
20) Christmas is a special time for me and I am looking forward to teaching my kids to feel the same joy and happiness. We watch Christmas shows/movies from December 1st to December 31st. I love looking at lights, I love carols. Christmas makes me giddy.
bonus - I love tilt-a-whirls I laugh until I think I am going to pee my pants
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