Liberated

You know what is liberating is know that I can write anything and that no one is reading it.  I can say what I want and put it out there and not feel bad about it.  This is something I have a problem with.  I always analyse what I say, I worry constantly about what I say and it offending someone unless I am drunk!  Some new friends worry I'm not sharing enough really I'm getting there, I am thinking, slowly opening up, and trying not to offend. 

I have friends whom are very opinionated and aren't afraid to share.  The funny thing is that if you know my family at all I was raised by a man that will tell it as it is for the most part, but in the next breath grin and chew the sides of his mouth off.  I love watching him - knowing that I am exactly like him.  Actually we are like a volcano we can control our opinions for a long time, but then we erupt and then it is back to a slow simmering volcano.  But once we erupt the over flow of lava (guilt) is terrible that is all I focus on and I can't get it out of my brain.

That's the problem with being me I think and think! 

Scratch that I am starting a healthy you challenge on Monday and one of the challenges is to put your not so great qualities into a positive. 

So it's not a problem it is a quality of mine that has many positives with a few negatives on the side.  My brain never shuts off I think this is a great quality it has helped me to solve many dilemmas on my own and has kept me sane although truth be told it's the quality that is going to send me over the edge as well :)