I have 7 unpublished posts.....so while it may seem like I am not following my new year's resolution. I am. I have been blogging, I have re-taught myself to play the piano, however, I have not started something "new". I really wanted to start a girls group of some sort but I just don't have the energy.
Energy.....where do you suppose people get their energy. I have been struggling with going back to work for many reasons.
1) There were a lot of changes while I was on maternity leave
2) There were not enough changes while I was on maternity leave
3) I don't know how the time goes so fast
4) I went back to work at a busy season with all the parties and events fall and Christmas bring
5) I have no time for myself.
I took a Mindfulness course....while it has helped slightly....I have not gotten as much out of it as I should have.....right now I can hear the instructor saying "you only get what you put in"
Our life has been crazy lately...James is playing hockey, Janessa is in skating and gymnastics and Abigail is into everything so we haven't really seen any friends or had any quality time for anyone. I did manage to spend a couple of hours with a great friend of mine but that's really it. We are in the midst of Christmas plans and planning a 4 year old's birthday party. Never mind trying to find time to bake.
Enough ramblings for now. I have a post about a beautiful 1 year old and a post about a darling 4 year old coming up.....
Tuesday, 12 November 2013
Monday, 11 November 2013
Confession
I was dieting and lost weight.
I have been maintaining for 4 1/2 half months, I fluctuate 5 pounds on a regular basis and it is consuming me.....I hate it. I weigh myself 5 times a day and I can't control it. I am the lightest I've been in a long time, but when I look in the mirror I see a "chubby" girl. I hate it.
I need and want to create high confident girls. I don't want them to ever feel this way
I have been maintaining for 4 1/2 half months, I fluctuate 5 pounds on a regular basis and it is consuming me.....I hate it. I weigh myself 5 times a day and I can't control it. I am the lightest I've been in a long time, but when I look in the mirror I see a "chubby" girl. I hate it.
I need and want to create high confident girls. I don't want them to ever feel this way
Tuesday, 24 September 2013
30 things #5
5 Passions
Passion............what are my 5 passions
1) My children - I have always wanted to be a mom! I love my girls and I love spending time with them this is important to me.
2) Food.......not a lie I love food. I love dainties. I love appetizers. I would have an appetizer/dainty party every day if I could.
3) Cookbooks.....I love cookbooks. I don't often make the recipes but I love to look at them, I love to be creative when I'm cooking and I think looking at the cookbooks helps me to have fun in the kitchen.
4) Reading.....I will read anything and everything I really get into it. Maybe because I'm a bit of a homebody but I love reading
5) Friends.....I love friends - anyone reading this is probably thinking "really you hardly make time for us" lately this is true, I struggle working, being a mom and being a friend. But I love my friends, I love hearing about their lives, I love spending time with them, love doing things with them (plays, movies, coffee, fashion shows, visits etc)
Passion............what are my 5 passions
1) My children - I have always wanted to be a mom! I love my girls and I love spending time with them this is important to me.
2) Food.......not a lie I love food. I love dainties. I love appetizers. I would have an appetizer/dainty party every day if I could.
3) Cookbooks.....I love cookbooks. I don't often make the recipes but I love to look at them, I love to be creative when I'm cooking and I think looking at the cookbooks helps me to have fun in the kitchen.
4) Reading.....I will read anything and everything I really get into it. Maybe because I'm a bit of a homebody but I love reading
5) Friends.....I love friends - anyone reading this is probably thinking "really you hardly make time for us" lately this is true, I struggle working, being a mom and being a friend. But I love my friends, I love hearing about their lives, I love spending time with them, love doing things with them (plays, movies, coffee, fashion shows, visits etc)
One Year
Summer was busy.......in fact I am writing this and not exactly sure where the time went...I enjoyed all of my days spent with 2 beautiful little girls, treasuring the extra time we had together while I was on maternity leave.
Fast forward to September and I have a one year old! Abigail fits so well into our family it seems hard to believe that she was only born a year ago. This little girl is determined to grow up fast. She is very fair, with reddish/blonde hair, blue eyes and the sweetest smile your heart melts. She beams with love looking at me, dad, her sister and of course Jasper. She started walking 2 weeks ago and is stubborn.....if you comment or try to take pictures she promptly sits down and starts doing her "frog" crawl.
We started her birthday celebrations with one year pictures. We use an amazing photographer that despite Abigail not giving away her smiles we were able to get some great shots. A friend made a smash cake for her to smash - however instead of smashing the cake she daintily licked the icing and took small bites while looking at me with a very serious expression. (Note - the exact opposite of her sister who beat the cake to pieces)
Next was a birthday celebration! We had a friend birthday party on the Saturday with a ladybug theme. We ordered a cake, Janessa and I made cupcakes and a friend of mine made amazing ladybug and flower cake pops. We served lunch of hot dogs, veggies, fruit, some dips, licorice and spent a few hours outside on bouncy castles and playing in the yard. The day was perfect.
The next day we had a family party in Portage. Unfortunately the weather was cooler, but we braved the wind and partied outside. Enjoying fruit, veggies, and hot dogs. This theme was owls! Again we ordered a cake and served cupcakes and ice cream!
On her actual birthday we enjoyed the day at home! Went out for breakfast, spent time at the park, enjoyed a nap and then went off to the local circus......this circus didn't have fancy animals, or lots of clowns, but it had dogs, horse rides, color and music. All things that make both my girls happy! We came home enjoyed some treats, opened more presents and called it good.
The next day was my first actual return to work from maternity leave.....the day was rough. There were many tears...lots of emotion from all 3 of us. The first week (four days) was rough and in fact I ended up staying home on Thursday......I couldn't do it. It was also needle day so I though it best to keep Abigail home and have extra cuddles.
This week......my second week into work.......still very emotional. Janessa is having a hard time adjusting, she misses those extra days of mommy time, she is mad because she wants to be in school and doesn't understand that she is not old enough (she is a brilliant, beautiful girl who wants to be at school). Abigail caught the first cold of many......oh the life of day care so she is snotty, coughing, tired, and just run down. I am exhausted. I have a hard time being "on" . James is away this week...so lucky him he's not here for all the meltdowns. I'm sure in time it will get easier........
Fast forward to September and I have a one year old! Abigail fits so well into our family it seems hard to believe that she was only born a year ago. This little girl is determined to grow up fast. She is very fair, with reddish/blonde hair, blue eyes and the sweetest smile your heart melts. She beams with love looking at me, dad, her sister and of course Jasper. She started walking 2 weeks ago and is stubborn.....if you comment or try to take pictures she promptly sits down and starts doing her "frog" crawl.
We started her birthday celebrations with one year pictures. We use an amazing photographer that despite Abigail not giving away her smiles we were able to get some great shots. A friend made a smash cake for her to smash - however instead of smashing the cake she daintily licked the icing and took small bites while looking at me with a very serious expression. (Note - the exact opposite of her sister who beat the cake to pieces)
Next was a birthday celebration! We had a friend birthday party on the Saturday with a ladybug theme. We ordered a cake, Janessa and I made cupcakes and a friend of mine made amazing ladybug and flower cake pops. We served lunch of hot dogs, veggies, fruit, some dips, licorice and spent a few hours outside on bouncy castles and playing in the yard. The day was perfect.
The next day we had a family party in Portage. Unfortunately the weather was cooler, but we braved the wind and partied outside. Enjoying fruit, veggies, and hot dogs. This theme was owls! Again we ordered a cake and served cupcakes and ice cream!
On her actual birthday we enjoyed the day at home! Went out for breakfast, spent time at the park, enjoyed a nap and then went off to the local circus......this circus didn't have fancy animals, or lots of clowns, but it had dogs, horse rides, color and music. All things that make both my girls happy! We came home enjoyed some treats, opened more presents and called it good.
The next day was my first actual return to work from maternity leave.....the day was rough. There were many tears...lots of emotion from all 3 of us. The first week (four days) was rough and in fact I ended up staying home on Thursday......I couldn't do it. It was also needle day so I though it best to keep Abigail home and have extra cuddles.
This week......my second week into work.......still very emotional. Janessa is having a hard time adjusting, she misses those extra days of mommy time, she is mad because she wants to be in school and doesn't understand that she is not old enough (she is a brilliant, beautiful girl who wants to be at school). Abigail caught the first cold of many......oh the life of day care so she is snotty, coughing, tired, and just run down. I am exhausted. I have a hard time being "on" . James is away this week...so lucky him he's not here for all the meltdowns. I'm sure in time it will get easier........
Friday, 14 June 2013
30 things #7
What is my dream job?
This is a tough question! Sometimes I believe I am doing my dream job right now - being a mom. But then I go into my paying job and miss the interaction and think about the work I do and realize that I am pretty close to my dream job now. Let's see if I can sum this up
I think my dream job would be to work 7 hours a day 9-3, Monday - Friday. This would be my "paying" job and my job would include moments for laughter, moments to help people, moments of pressure, moments where I needed to make descisions and moments where I just got to hang out. I also want part of my job to have an education compontent. This piece would have moments where I would teach people, but a requirement of my position would entail professional developement. My "unpaid" job would be the rest of the time so from 3pm - 9am 365 days of the year, with on call duties from 9-3 Monday through Friday. This job would include being a mom! Cooking, cleaning, loving, playing, teaching, reacting, problem solving, budgetting, planning, shopping, recreational activities, etc!!!!
So almost there....
This is a tough question! Sometimes I believe I am doing my dream job right now - being a mom. But then I go into my paying job and miss the interaction and think about the work I do and realize that I am pretty close to my dream job now. Let's see if I can sum this up
I think my dream job would be to work 7 hours a day 9-3, Monday - Friday. This would be my "paying" job and my job would include moments for laughter, moments to help people, moments of pressure, moments where I needed to make descisions and moments where I just got to hang out. I also want part of my job to have an education compontent. This piece would have moments where I would teach people, but a requirement of my position would entail professional developement. My "unpaid" job would be the rest of the time so from 3pm - 9am 365 days of the year, with on call duties from 9-3 Monday through Friday. This job would include being a mom! Cooking, cleaning, loving, playing, teaching, reacting, problem solving, budgetting, planning, shopping, recreational activities, etc!!!!
So almost there....
june
How is it June 14th already!
So today is the birthday of a dear friends little boy. He is a handsome little boy and adorable :) I will never forget the day we got the call from his dad to say he'd arrived. His birth was egarly anticipated. I was pregnant with J at the same time. As I sit here remembering my eyes fill with tears because he was the first "little" boy I held after holding Brayden. Lucky for me I am able to cry infront of these friends because cry I did. So grateful to have good friends.
This weekend is crazy!
Tonight we have a family photo shoot, and we are getting some pics of just James and I. I even planned our outfits out so we are all coordinating. Looking forward to this for many reasons. I hate my picture taken but it's our 6 year anniversary and I would love to have a picture of us together. I also think I need to have a picture of me, I have lost some weight...but I don't see it. When I look at myself I still see the size 14/16 girl that I've always been.
Tomorrow Janessa has a program in the morning called Shake Rattle and Roll! I think James will take her adn then in the afternoon we get to go to a birthday party. So excited. Amanda plans great parties...maybe she should start a new buisness....anyways I am only slightly disappointed because she makes amazing cakes and I know I will want some. Oh well maybe next year???
Sunday we celebrate Father's day, Abigail turning 9 months and our anniversary! The plan is Tinkertown and then James and I are sending the girls home with my parents and we are going to have a "date" but we'll see.
Monday is the start of swimming lessons and Amanda's birthday! Wow what's it going to be like when the girls are in school and we are doing all the year end school things.........
I enjoy blogging but I often forget to post! Feel free to message me, text me send me a reminder. I have lots to say, I guess it depends on if you want to hear it or not :)
So today is the birthday of a dear friends little boy. He is a handsome little boy and adorable :) I will never forget the day we got the call from his dad to say he'd arrived. His birth was egarly anticipated. I was pregnant with J at the same time. As I sit here remembering my eyes fill with tears because he was the first "little" boy I held after holding Brayden. Lucky for me I am able to cry infront of these friends because cry I did. So grateful to have good friends.
This weekend is crazy!
Tonight we have a family photo shoot, and we are getting some pics of just James and I. I even planned our outfits out so we are all coordinating. Looking forward to this for many reasons. I hate my picture taken but it's our 6 year anniversary and I would love to have a picture of us together. I also think I need to have a picture of me, I have lost some weight...but I don't see it. When I look at myself I still see the size 14/16 girl that I've always been.
Tomorrow Janessa has a program in the morning called Shake Rattle and Roll! I think James will take her adn then in the afternoon we get to go to a birthday party. So excited. Amanda plans great parties...maybe she should start a new buisness....anyways I am only slightly disappointed because she makes amazing cakes and I know I will want some. Oh well maybe next year???
Sunday we celebrate Father's day, Abigail turning 9 months and our anniversary! The plan is Tinkertown and then James and I are sending the girls home with my parents and we are going to have a "date" but we'll see.
Monday is the start of swimming lessons and Amanda's birthday! Wow what's it going to be like when the girls are in school and we are doing all the year end school things.........
I enjoy blogging but I often forget to post! Feel free to message me, text me send me a reminder. I have lots to say, I guess it depends on if you want to hear it or not :)
Thursday, 23 May 2013
luck? fate? destiny?
I am one lucky lady!!!
I have a husband who loves me (depsite my temper tantrums) I have great friends (who I am trying to make an effort to see more regularly - but how to balance everything) I have great family, I have a wonderful dog (really he is more like a 3rd child) but most importantly I have 2 beautiful girls to share my time with.
I keep getting asked the following 3 questions:
1) Do you want to go back to work?
2) What are your plans for summer? and in the next breath Why are you not planning camping or vacations?
3) When are you having another
These 3 questions seem to be important to others. Even for people who are really close to James and I. I just don't understand.
So I will answer them now.
1) Call me a bad mom - but I am a better mom when I am working. I make more of an effort to do the special things. I tressure the time I have the girls more because it is limited. I also love the day care my children go to. My oldest has learned to play so well and is growing to be a sweet, caring, smart young lady. I also like my job, they treat me well and are accomodating with my life. I feel I have the best of both worlds.
2) We don't have plans for the summer.....gasp....I know. The queen of planning doesn't have plans...NO I have plans but they are big or fabulous they are small, trivial but involve creating lasting memories. To me that is more than a trip to Flordia, a trip to a cabin. We like camping but don't want to be bothered with the set up and take down when we can spend that money and time doing other fun activities.
3) We are done having children! WHAT???????? Yes Done! In fact unless a miracle happens I am unable to have anymore they took care of that during the c-section. I would love a million children, I would love to have an army but why take the chance. We gambled with both pregnancies and the 9 months I carried those babies were so stressful on me. I may have come across as relaxed and uncaring - but it was hard. To be honest, mom's that have babies and have had easy pregnancies really don't understand what it's like to hope, pray and be scared.
The other reason is A looked so much like Brayden when she was born I wasn't sure I would bond with her. But we bonded and have a special bond. What a sinking feeling when they hand you that baby and all the memories of holding a baby that died come flooding back.
I have a new mantra! It is don't worry things will work out. Fate, Karma, God whatever there is a plan for me and while I make desicions that affect the plan I ultimatley have to have faith that things will work out. Don't believe for a 2nd that's a lazy of way of living. For example I wanted my child to play soccer - no one stepped up to offer the program, I could've have sat back and did nothing and said oh well maybe next year, but I can't complain then when opportunities are not given. So we are running the program, I don't think we are the most qualified, nor do I think we will make everyone happy but we are creating memories.
That is where I am today. Where I hope to be tomorrow.
I have a husband who loves me (depsite my temper tantrums) I have great friends (who I am trying to make an effort to see more regularly - but how to balance everything) I have great family, I have a wonderful dog (really he is more like a 3rd child) but most importantly I have 2 beautiful girls to share my time with.
I keep getting asked the following 3 questions:
1) Do you want to go back to work?
2) What are your plans for summer? and in the next breath Why are you not planning camping or vacations?
3) When are you having another
These 3 questions seem to be important to others. Even for people who are really close to James and I. I just don't understand.
So I will answer them now.
1) Call me a bad mom - but I am a better mom when I am working. I make more of an effort to do the special things. I tressure the time I have the girls more because it is limited. I also love the day care my children go to. My oldest has learned to play so well and is growing to be a sweet, caring, smart young lady. I also like my job, they treat me well and are accomodating with my life. I feel I have the best of both worlds.
2) We don't have plans for the summer.....gasp....I know. The queen of planning doesn't have plans...NO I have plans but they are big or fabulous they are small, trivial but involve creating lasting memories. To me that is more than a trip to Flordia, a trip to a cabin. We like camping but don't want to be bothered with the set up and take down when we can spend that money and time doing other fun activities.
3) We are done having children! WHAT???????? Yes Done! In fact unless a miracle happens I am unable to have anymore they took care of that during the c-section. I would love a million children, I would love to have an army but why take the chance. We gambled with both pregnancies and the 9 months I carried those babies were so stressful on me. I may have come across as relaxed and uncaring - but it was hard. To be honest, mom's that have babies and have had easy pregnancies really don't understand what it's like to hope, pray and be scared.
The other reason is A looked so much like Brayden when she was born I wasn't sure I would bond with her. But we bonded and have a special bond. What a sinking feeling when they hand you that baby and all the memories of holding a baby that died come flooding back.
I have a new mantra! It is don't worry things will work out. Fate, Karma, God whatever there is a plan for me and while I make desicions that affect the plan I ultimatley have to have faith that things will work out. Don't believe for a 2nd that's a lazy of way of living. For example I wanted my child to play soccer - no one stepped up to offer the program, I could've have sat back and did nothing and said oh well maybe next year, but I can't complain then when opportunities are not given. So we are running the program, I don't think we are the most qualified, nor do I think we will make everyone happy but we are creating memories.
That is where I am today. Where I hope to be tomorrow.
Reading, Writing and Arithmetic/teasing - Who teaches our children?
So I have something to get off my chest. I am not a teacher, I am parent, I am educated, I try not to judge but probably do at times, I try to respect people, I like to be informed and I have opinions. This is my opinion and thoughts........I guess that goes without saying as this is my blog that is why I am "venting" on here and not facebook I don't want to start a debate.
I care what is being taught in schools. I care about the education my daughters will learn. I want the teachers to help teach them things that will create smart, caring, respectful young ladies. I want my daughters to go to school to learn, so they can grow and mature to find a meaningful place in the world. However, I do not expect teachers to raise my children, I do not expect teachers to be their parents - their supports, their friends, their mentors but not their parents.
What happened to Reading, Writing and Arithmetic? Time with peers, physical education. I bet each of you can look back on your childhood and remember coming home at least one day in tears because you were teased. I think in this age teasing has gone to a whole new level and I think more emphasis by parents need to be put into raising children to be respectful!
I read they are looking at changing the curriculum to include all sexual orientations. I assume this is an undertaking that resembles the changing of curriculum to include other ethnic backgrounds, and removing religion from the school. All of this confuses me. I thought we sent our children to school to meet friends, play sports and to learn to read, write and do math. However, that being said I think children only excel with parents support as there is no way a child can learn everything they need to in a school year.
I truly believe everyone we know is involved in teaching our children. Neighbours, teachers, friends, grandparents, and most importantly Parents. What I don't understand is why we are letting people that are in our children's lives for approximately 260 days (that doesn't include time off for spring break, Christmas break, summer or pd days) teach core values. I want to raise my children to be respectful of everyone, I do not care if you are a straight, gay, white, green, black, purple, christian, Jewish, come from Alabama or Timbuktu. Share your life with us and we will share our life with you. My children will find their way and if they have questions I hope they come to me. I don't want them to hear if you think it is wrong or right, or your feelings about religion, color of skin etc.
Sorry for the rambling post. I just don't get it. Let's focus on education
I care what is being taught in schools. I care about the education my daughters will learn. I want the teachers to help teach them things that will create smart, caring, respectful young ladies. I want my daughters to go to school to learn, so they can grow and mature to find a meaningful place in the world. However, I do not expect teachers to raise my children, I do not expect teachers to be their parents - their supports, their friends, their mentors but not their parents.
What happened to Reading, Writing and Arithmetic? Time with peers, physical education. I bet each of you can look back on your childhood and remember coming home at least one day in tears because you were teased. I think in this age teasing has gone to a whole new level and I think more emphasis by parents need to be put into raising children to be respectful!
I read they are looking at changing the curriculum to include all sexual orientations. I assume this is an undertaking that resembles the changing of curriculum to include other ethnic backgrounds, and removing religion from the school. All of this confuses me. I thought we sent our children to school to meet friends, play sports and to learn to read, write and do math. However, that being said I think children only excel with parents support as there is no way a child can learn everything they need to in a school year.
I truly believe everyone we know is involved in teaching our children. Neighbours, teachers, friends, grandparents, and most importantly Parents. What I don't understand is why we are letting people that are in our children's lives for approximately 260 days (that doesn't include time off for spring break, Christmas break, summer or pd days) teach core values. I want to raise my children to be respectful of everyone, I do not care if you are a straight, gay, white, green, black, purple, christian, Jewish, come from Alabama or Timbuktu. Share your life with us and we will share our life with you. My children will find their way and if they have questions I hope they come to me. I don't want them to hear if you think it is wrong or right, or your feelings about religion, color of skin etc.
Sorry for the rambling post. I just don't get it. Let's focus on education
Tuesday, 30 April 2013
Books vs Electronic device for reading
OK so call me old fashioned but I don't understand the new desire to read things electronically. I don't have an e-reader, kindle or anything to read books on. Oh wait..... I do my blackberry thing has the ability to download books onto it. I have done it twice and I have had it for over a year.
I like books, I like taking them with me where ever I go, I like being able to say to a friend "hey I just finished this great book I think you'll like it" and giving it to them. I read every night and I enjoy reading. I also read everything if someone suggests it I will read it. Some books take me longer to get through than others but I will always finish the book. I also read cookbooks. I love reading cookbooks and hope I get a new one for mothers day.
I know books are heavy, books take up space etc....I've heard it all but I don't understand there is nothing like turning the page, skipping ahead a few chapters seeing what is happening and looking at the cover of the book. I also love the smell of books.
I like books, I like taking them with me where ever I go, I like being able to say to a friend "hey I just finished this great book I think you'll like it" and giving it to them. I read every night and I enjoy reading. I also read everything if someone suggests it I will read it. Some books take me longer to get through than others but I will always finish the book. I also read cookbooks. I love reading cookbooks and hope I get a new one for mothers day.
I know books are heavy, books take up space etc....I've heard it all but I don't understand there is nothing like turning the page, skipping ahead a few chapters seeing what is happening and looking at the cover of the book. I also love the smell of books.
Friday, 26 April 2013
30 Things #6
If you could have 3 wishes, what would you wish for?
Truthfully it all depends on the day and time. However overall the 3 things I wish for regularly are:
1) a house with a big entrance way - this is very important to me and will happen one day
2) to be financially wealthy (originally I had secure there but that's wrong because we are secure now) I would love to have money in the bank so that we were only working because we wanted to work not because we have to pay bills, or save for a vacation, or for the girls school. I want that all taken care of and the money we are working for is mad money - I would then only work part-time and run a business or volunteer.
3) All the cliches are going through my head, health, happiness, no fighting, warm weather, cleaning lady - oh wait had that and hated it she didn't clean like I did, ....................hmm what is my 3rd wish, I am trying to think extravagant. Really I wish there was a cure for cancer and MS. These two diseases/illnesses are so prevalent in everyone I talk to lately that I wish there was cure.
Truthfully it all depends on the day and time. However overall the 3 things I wish for regularly are:
1) a house with a big entrance way - this is very important to me and will happen one day
2) to be financially wealthy (originally I had secure there but that's wrong because we are secure now) I would love to have money in the bank so that we were only working because we wanted to work not because we have to pay bills, or save for a vacation, or for the girls school. I want that all taken care of and the money we are working for is mad money - I would then only work part-time and run a business or volunteer.
3) All the cliches are going through my head, health, happiness, no fighting, warm weather, cleaning lady - oh wait had that and hated it she didn't clean like I did, ....................hmm what is my 3rd wish, I am trying to think extravagant. Really I wish there was a cure for cancer and MS. These two diseases/illnesses are so prevalent in everyone I talk to lately that I wish there was cure.
Thursday, 25 April 2013
What April is almost done?!?!?
It's been a while..... In fact so long that I don't remember what I last talked about so keep in mind you may hear some repetative news.
We have been living life to it's fullest :) Plans everyday, work commitments, school commitments, family commitments and friend commitments. When I look at our life I feel full. Sometimes I even feel too full like things are out of hand. My last post I'm sure was about the daycare dance and supper with a great friend. While that great friend made a comment "Our marriage is better when we actually have time for each other" this comment has stuck with me this week, because I don't think James and I have actually talked this month except in passing until yesterday.
So this month (in no particular order) we celebrated a 6 year old's birthday - she is a delightful little girl who has grown before our eyes. We both took some courses. Went to Winnipeg for a shopping day and so I could pick up my bridesmaid dress, I went to Winnipeg with A and visited with 2 great friends. Had a play date with another friend and her 3 girls, my in-laws came out for a day, went and saw the Manitou dance producation ( a very cute munchkin and monkey were the stars of the show if you ask me), finally spent time with a great set of friends whom we are lucky enough to call our neighbours, made 2 big batches of soup, celebrated our neices 13 birthday, attended a baby shower for a beautiful baby and Janessa and I were both lucky enough to have some snuggles, helped plan my dad's birthday party, helped James get ready to coach little kickers soccer, finished shake rattle and roll and registered for another one, did a little work from home and at the office. Finally registered for the MS Walk.
My dad has been diagnosed with MS we decided we would like to help be part of the team that brings awareness of MS and hopefully funds to continue to research.
Our next few weeks are just as busy, but I think I will be happier as the sun shines and we are able to get outdoors.
I am trying to organize a girls "Splurge Group" it's once a month a group of about 9 ladies get together and do something (trading books, cheese and wine, pedicures, etc) I think it will go along way in self perserving me. I have been reading a lot of health books and as much as it is important to eat right, exercise, it's important for your mind to be looked after. I am also looking into taking a mindfullness training - it helps to recognize stress. I've heard mixed reviews for those who have more of a spiritual belif they find it crap (my understanding is that it talks about meditation and many people don't belief in this), heard who has time, yet others have found it helpful and informative about their body cues.
Weightloss is progressing, exercise is going well, now with some more time with friends/family and the beautiful outdoors I will be at my ulitmate health - I think I was one of those people who was starting to feel the effects of the weather on my mental health so lets all cheer for warmer temps :)
We have been living life to it's fullest :) Plans everyday, work commitments, school commitments, family commitments and friend commitments. When I look at our life I feel full. Sometimes I even feel too full like things are out of hand. My last post I'm sure was about the daycare dance and supper with a great friend. While that great friend made a comment "Our marriage is better when we actually have time for each other" this comment has stuck with me this week, because I don't think James and I have actually talked this month except in passing until yesterday.
So this month (in no particular order) we celebrated a 6 year old's birthday - she is a delightful little girl who has grown before our eyes. We both took some courses. Went to Winnipeg for a shopping day and so I could pick up my bridesmaid dress, I went to Winnipeg with A and visited with 2 great friends. Had a play date with another friend and her 3 girls, my in-laws came out for a day, went and saw the Manitou dance producation ( a very cute munchkin and monkey were the stars of the show if you ask me), finally spent time with a great set of friends whom we are lucky enough to call our neighbours, made 2 big batches of soup, celebrated our neices 13 birthday, attended a baby shower for a beautiful baby and Janessa and I were both lucky enough to have some snuggles, helped plan my dad's birthday party, helped James get ready to coach little kickers soccer, finished shake rattle and roll and registered for another one, did a little work from home and at the office. Finally registered for the MS Walk.
My dad has been diagnosed with MS we decided we would like to help be part of the team that brings awareness of MS and hopefully funds to continue to research.
Our next few weeks are just as busy, but I think I will be happier as the sun shines and we are able to get outdoors.
I am trying to organize a girls "Splurge Group" it's once a month a group of about 9 ladies get together and do something (trading books, cheese and wine, pedicures, etc) I think it will go along way in self perserving me. I have been reading a lot of health books and as much as it is important to eat right, exercise, it's important for your mind to be looked after. I am also looking into taking a mindfullness training - it helps to recognize stress. I've heard mixed reviews for those who have more of a spiritual belif they find it crap (my understanding is that it talks about meditation and many people don't belief in this), heard who has time, yet others have found it helpful and informative about their body cues.
Weightloss is progressing, exercise is going well, now with some more time with friends/family and the beautiful outdoors I will be at my ulitmate health - I think I was one of those people who was starting to feel the effects of the weather on my mental health so lets all cheer for warmer temps :)
Tuesday, 9 April 2013
Any day.......
I am waiting and waiting and waiting for spring to arrive. Last year at this time it was beautiful out this year we have snow and minus temperatures, it was -27 with the windchill this morning.....I am on maternity leave and I could be enjoying the time outside, but no I am inside still enjoying my time but inside :(
As I look at our calender I am amazed that I have time to think about the beautiful weather we should be having. Since Easter we've been on the go! Easter came and went, we had family gatherings - one was at a hall without running water....yes I used a whole bottle of hand sanitiser that day! We met two beautiful babies. Harper whom we look forward to having many tea parties and Rhett who was adopted into the most deserving family I know. Managed to go to a social and of course the bunny rabbit came!!! He even left a small amount of chocolate
This past weekend was the daycare dance! The staff at the daycare are amazing I am so happy that we choose the daycare to attend, then I was able to have supper with a great friend. Although I am very truthful with her she knows I love her.
Now for the rest of this week one or both of us have plans, the only night/day we have free is next Sunday and I think I just made plans for that day! Yikes!!! Oh well you only live once so you might as well fill the time up with enjoyable, educational, recreational activities!
As I look at our calender I am amazed that I have time to think about the beautiful weather we should be having. Since Easter we've been on the go! Easter came and went, we had family gatherings - one was at a hall without running water....yes I used a whole bottle of hand sanitiser that day! We met two beautiful babies. Harper whom we look forward to having many tea parties and Rhett who was adopted into the most deserving family I know. Managed to go to a social and of course the bunny rabbit came!!! He even left a small amount of chocolate
This past weekend was the daycare dance! The staff at the daycare are amazing I am so happy that we choose the daycare to attend, then I was able to have supper with a great friend. Although I am very truthful with her she knows I love her.
Now for the rest of this week one or both of us have plans, the only night/day we have free is next Sunday and I think I just made plans for that day! Yikes!!! Oh well you only live once so you might as well fill the time up with enjoyable, educational, recreational activities!
Thursday, 21 March 2013
30 Things #5
5 things that make me happy
1) My Husband - so many people comment on fb about how they asked their husband to do chores, or help with the kids and he willing did so. I am one of the lucky ones, I don't have to ask. He is always there to help, or do things. I couldn't ask for a better best friend.
2) My Daughters - there was a time when I didn't think I would be able to say this but now I am lucky enough to have two beautiful children.
3) My Parents - so lucky!!!!!!!!!
4) My Dog - he has been with us and has helped me in more ways than anyone could imagine
5) My friends - although I don't see them often I truly treassure my frienships
Because those 5 seem obvious I will continue......
6) Sun - My mood is drastically affected by the sun
7) Broccolli - I love it, so does my daughter there was a time when I didn't keep broccolli in my house because James didn't like it but it's 2-1 now :)
8) Baking - although I don't do it very often I love it
9) Date nights - mean the world to me
10) Chocolate - not a lie! Everyone knows this if I am upset or having a bad day a little bit of chocolate goes a long way for me
1) My Husband - so many people comment on fb about how they asked their husband to do chores, or help with the kids and he willing did so. I am one of the lucky ones, I don't have to ask. He is always there to help, or do things. I couldn't ask for a better best friend.
2) My Daughters - there was a time when I didn't think I would be able to say this but now I am lucky enough to have two beautiful children.
3) My Parents - so lucky!!!!!!!!!
4) My Dog - he has been with us and has helped me in more ways than anyone could imagine
5) My friends - although I don't see them often I truly treassure my frienships
Because those 5 seem obvious I will continue......
6) Sun - My mood is drastically affected by the sun
7) Broccolli - I love it, so does my daughter there was a time when I didn't keep broccolli in my house because James didn't like it but it's 2-1 now :)
8) Baking - although I don't do it very often I love it
9) Date nights - mean the world to me
10) Chocolate - not a lie! Everyone knows this if I am upset or having a bad day a little bit of chocolate goes a long way for me
30 things #4
10 things I would tell my 16 year old self.............
1) Don't be so hard on yourself
2) The math test that you are fretting over isn't all that important you are not going to use it in the future.
3) Surround yourself with friends! Your friends will change with the years and that is ok, but always be surrounded by people you like.
4) Life will get harder, so don't fret the small stuff
5) start eating healthy now!!!! You'll thank yourself later
6) Don't be shy - be open to anything you never know what/who is behind those doors
7) Go on that trip - the one you are thinking about because if you don't you won't!
8) Don't forget how to play the piano
9) Tressure your time with your grandparents - they aren't around forever
10) Don't have any regrets, but learn from your mistakes
1) Don't be so hard on yourself
2) The math test that you are fretting over isn't all that important you are not going to use it in the future.
3) Surround yourself with friends! Your friends will change with the years and that is ok, but always be surrounded by people you like.
4) Life will get harder, so don't fret the small stuff
5) start eating healthy now!!!! You'll thank yourself later
6) Don't be shy - be open to anything you never know what/who is behind those doors
7) Go on that trip - the one you are thinking about because if you don't you won't!
8) Don't forget how to play the piano
9) Tressure your time with your grandparents - they aren't around forever
10) Don't have any regrets, but learn from your mistakes
Monday, 18 March 2013
Weekend of Birthdays!
This past weekend we celebrated.......
1) the arrival of a baby girl to some great friends! She is going to be one spoiled little girl and we look forward to many tea parties with her.
2) my mom's birthday! J had a great time helping me cook supper, and bake a cake. She decorated it all by herself. My daughter likes plain things so it was a white cake, with vanilla icing, served with vanilla ice cream. It was a really great evening.
3) my father-in-law's birthday! They stayed in a hotel so we went for a little swim in the morning and then back for supper and cake.
4) A turning 6 months old....she is growing so fast, I love this stage but I really want her to slow down.
5) I celebrated the fact that I am losing weight! I know the scale has been telling me, but it doesn't feel like it is true until my mom says something. Soon I hope to be at my pre baby weight....
After all that celebrating it was time to return to Winkler we had a great family evening, playing, having baths and watching a little tv.
This week is going to be fun/busy and probably a little crazy
1) dance tonight.........nevermind cancelled due to winter storm - why are we having a storm in the middle of March
2) needles tomorrow
3) pictures on Wednesday
4) lunch with a friend on Thursday
5) play date in the morning on Friday, and Friday afternoon I am trying a body wrap....who knows but I'll try anything once
6) shake rattle and roll, maybe a little shopping
7) finish painting the mouldings and putting them back up, finish our entrance way
8) get ready for 2 extra girls to stay with us for 4 days................
1) the arrival of a baby girl to some great friends! She is going to be one spoiled little girl and we look forward to many tea parties with her.
2) my mom's birthday! J had a great time helping me cook supper, and bake a cake. She decorated it all by herself. My daughter likes plain things so it was a white cake, with vanilla icing, served with vanilla ice cream. It was a really great evening.
3) my father-in-law's birthday! They stayed in a hotel so we went for a little swim in the morning and then back for supper and cake.
4) A turning 6 months old....she is growing so fast, I love this stage but I really want her to slow down.
5) I celebrated the fact that I am losing weight! I know the scale has been telling me, but it doesn't feel like it is true until my mom says something. Soon I hope to be at my pre baby weight....
After all that celebrating it was time to return to Winkler we had a great family evening, playing, having baths and watching a little tv.
This week is going to be fun/busy and probably a little crazy
1) dance tonight.........nevermind cancelled due to winter storm - why are we having a storm in the middle of March
2) needles tomorrow
3) pictures on Wednesday
4) lunch with a friend on Thursday
5) play date in the morning on Friday, and Friday afternoon I am trying a body wrap....who knows but I'll try anything once
6) shake rattle and roll, maybe a little shopping
7) finish painting the mouldings and putting them back up, finish our entrance way
8) get ready for 2 extra girls to stay with us for 4 days................
Monday, 11 March 2013
Wow
So in the last 5 days my world has revolved around painting!
Our entrance way is painted, our kitchen is painted, our bathroom door is painted and hung, our pantry door is painted and will be hung tomorrow. The hallway and living room will be painted tomorrow.
I don't know if it's just this year or the fact that I am on maternity leave and have been looking at my house closer but I have created a huge list of to-do projects for James. I must say it was a slow start but bit by bit he is slowly getting things done and I get the joy of crossing them off the list.
I made the comment yesterday we should've painted our kitchen cupboards as well, for now I think I will leave that. I am hoping to get new kitchen cupboards so maybe if they stay ugly looking the new cupboards will happen sooner than later.
The girls are doing great! However, in the midst of house rennos/painting and preping James hurt himself and used the F word - the bad thing is J picked up on this word and knows it's bad and says it - there is nothing that makes me want to vomit than hearing a little girl say the F word. We are going to have to nip this in the butt fast! A is a squirmmer, she talks 24 hours a day. I thought we were busy with J but I think I'm in trouble!
Anyways things will be quiet here for a few days as I clean up from the whirlwind painting projects but I will return with my random thoughts!
Our entrance way is painted, our kitchen is painted, our bathroom door is painted and hung, our pantry door is painted and will be hung tomorrow. The hallway and living room will be painted tomorrow.
I don't know if it's just this year or the fact that I am on maternity leave and have been looking at my house closer but I have created a huge list of to-do projects for James. I must say it was a slow start but bit by bit he is slowly getting things done and I get the joy of crossing them off the list.
I made the comment yesterday we should've painted our kitchen cupboards as well, for now I think I will leave that. I am hoping to get new kitchen cupboards so maybe if they stay ugly looking the new cupboards will happen sooner than later.
The girls are doing great! However, in the midst of house rennos/painting and preping James hurt himself and used the F word - the bad thing is J picked up on this word and knows it's bad and says it - there is nothing that makes me want to vomit than hearing a little girl say the F word. We are going to have to nip this in the butt fast! A is a squirmmer, she talks 24 hours a day. I thought we were busy with J but I think I'm in trouble!
Anyways things will be quiet here for a few days as I clean up from the whirlwind painting projects but I will return with my random thoughts!
Wednesday, 6 March 2013
30 Things #3
Wow my relationship with my spouse.
James and I love each other and have been through a lot together things that many people would not be able to handle, but by some miracle we always turn to each other.
We don't have that fairy tale relationship, we don't hide our feelings, and we are polor opposites.
While I talk about my feelings - James hides them
I like to get things done - James is a procrastinator
I finish one task before another - James jumps from project to project
I am the disiplianry - James is not
I am the affectionate one - James is not
I am the clean one - James is not
I am the throw your clothes on the floor - James is the hang/put everything away in order
etc..............
We fight, but always make up! We have very real moments everyday. But James is my best friend, the person I lean on the person I tell everything to. My rock!
We have a very boring relationship right now and while it has never been trips, exotic meals etc I am looking forward to a more eventful summer. I am looking forward to more "dates" these dates consist of curling up and watching a movie, or tv show. Going for walks hand in hand (we still manage to hold hands with a stroller), enjoying a fire with just the two of us and a glass of wine.
I think we have a real relationship and respect each other. I hope that both my girls are lucky enough to find their best friend, the friend they can lean on, yell at, be mad at and love all in 10 seconds of each other one day
James and I love each other and have been through a lot together things that many people would not be able to handle, but by some miracle we always turn to each other.
We don't have that fairy tale relationship, we don't hide our feelings, and we are polor opposites.
While I talk about my feelings - James hides them
I like to get things done - James is a procrastinator
I finish one task before another - James jumps from project to project
I am the disiplianry - James is not
I am the affectionate one - James is not
I am the clean one - James is not
I am the throw your clothes on the floor - James is the hang/put everything away in order
etc..............
We fight, but always make up! We have very real moments everyday. But James is my best friend, the person I lean on the person I tell everything to. My rock!
We have a very boring relationship right now and while it has never been trips, exotic meals etc I am looking forward to a more eventful summer. I am looking forward to more "dates" these dates consist of curling up and watching a movie, or tv show. Going for walks hand in hand (we still manage to hold hands with a stroller), enjoying a fire with just the two of us and a glass of wine.
I think we have a real relationship and respect each other. I hope that both my girls are lucky enough to find their best friend, the friend they can lean on, yell at, be mad at and love all in 10 seconds of each other one day
Tuesday, 5 March 2013
Berly
Why Berly Nelson!!!!
A reader - which I can't actually believe I have emailed me this morning and asked a simple question why Berly? I bursted out laughing and said it's a short story that no one else will find funny so I will post about it :)
In highschool I had some really close girlfriends. One of my girlfriends really liked going online and meeting people - if you know me at all this is not for me - in fact I can't even remember what this blog is called and I started it. Anyways she created a profile for me and like most people with my name she tired to find a profile using Kimmy - I hate Kimmy - it drives me crazy. So she took my whole name and created Berly - her name was Bootie.
While on line chatting someone we were chatting to asked if Bootie signified a big butt - her answer was yes, so he said going by that theory that meant that Berly ment that I had lots of hair (Burly) so we tried to explain that no that wasn't the theory but it soon became a running joke for everyone. So I will always remember Berly - and I've been known to be forgetfull, flighty so the easy things are to remember for me the better :)
A reader - which I can't actually believe I have emailed me this morning and asked a simple question why Berly? I bursted out laughing and said it's a short story that no one else will find funny so I will post about it :)
In highschool I had some really close girlfriends. One of my girlfriends really liked going online and meeting people - if you know me at all this is not for me - in fact I can't even remember what this blog is called and I started it. Anyways she created a profile for me and like most people with my name she tired to find a profile using Kimmy - I hate Kimmy - it drives me crazy. So she took my whole name and created Berly - her name was Bootie.
While on line chatting someone we were chatting to asked if Bootie signified a big butt - her answer was yes, so he said going by that theory that meant that Berly ment that I had lots of hair (Burly) so we tried to explain that no that wasn't the theory but it soon became a running joke for everyone. So I will always remember Berly - and I've been known to be forgetfull, flighty so the easy things are to remember for me the better :)
Monday, 4 March 2013
in like a lion...........
When I look outside today I see huge snow drifts the yards are have huge banks and I want to cry. Winter is not my favorite time of year and I was looking forward to spring so here is a list of summer/spring activites I hope to do! If anyone has more suggestions add on:
zoo
parks
picnics
swimming - i love swimming
sidewalk chalk
festivals - i love all festivals
hot air balloon ride
flying kits
camping
fires
ice cream
bike riding -i love riding bikes
forks
prairie dog central
tinker town
local farmers markets
st norbert farmers market
blowing bubbles
walking
tinkertown
Just thinking about the warm weather has me smiling
zoo
parks
picnics
swimming - i love swimming
sidewalk chalk
festivals - i love all festivals
hot air balloon ride
flying kits
camping
fires
ice cream
bike riding -i love riding bikes
forks
prairie dog central
tinker town
local farmers markets
st norbert farmers market
blowing bubbles
walking
tinkertown
Just thinking about the warm weather has me smiling
Thursday, 28 February 2013
life
So I realize my last post was a little discouraging.........
Not really what I wanted this blog to be about! I want it to be upbeat and postive.
I lurk on other blogs and there is one I read and this blog is very negative and I get down reading it, so my hope is that for the most part this blog will put a smile on peoples face!
So if you know me you know that our curtains are open 24 hours a day. We never shut them, I am sure neighbours have seen some interesting sites. We often have dance parties in our house, and they sometimes strike at bath time, or after a morning shower or just as supper is cooking so you never know what you might see when you come to our house hold. My daugther's favorite dance is the "naked dance" she does this every night much to my husbands dismay! This morning I am teaching the yougest a new dance - she is too young to get it but she laughs and laughs so it's fun! Turkey and the straw - I am so glad my house isn't filled with cameras.
I've had a great few days spending lots of time with friends and which I love! Friday was spent with a dear friend we had tea/wine and a visit. We've been friends for a while now and I feel I can tell her anything - but really my life is quite boring compared to hers :) Then we were busy all weekend, Saturday was a catch up day and date night! Sunday I went to Winnipeg and went dress shopping with a great friend, we haven't known each other for too long but we are very similar and I know I can trust her with everything/anything! I am in her wedding and as much as I hate dress shopping it turned out well all dresses were found and I left not feeling huge like I usually do, infact my perception of myself is very skewed! Monday my husband went out. Tuesday was not a good night but Wednesday we had a date night again. Which bring us to today and we have friends coming over for tea/coffee/beer, Friday again friends are coming over for beer. My parents are coming out on Saturday and bringing my great uncle bob to meet A - he hasn't met her yet and I am excited. I have many memories of my uncle, but the one that always sticks out is when he used to chase me around when I was little threatening to spit chew (tobbacco stuff he used to chew and spit) in my hair. My hair was blonde, very blonde and he always told me it would turn it black.....Yes I know I do still love the man:) My aunt would defend me and we would go back to baking homemade buns. Sunday is up in the air, but we might go see a little baby and although my baby is only 5 months old, she seems big compared to other babies:)
Not really what I wanted this blog to be about! I want it to be upbeat and postive.
I lurk on other blogs and there is one I read and this blog is very negative and I get down reading it, so my hope is that for the most part this blog will put a smile on peoples face!
So if you know me you know that our curtains are open 24 hours a day. We never shut them, I am sure neighbours have seen some interesting sites. We often have dance parties in our house, and they sometimes strike at bath time, or after a morning shower or just as supper is cooking so you never know what you might see when you come to our house hold. My daugther's favorite dance is the "naked dance" she does this every night much to my husbands dismay! This morning I am teaching the yougest a new dance - she is too young to get it but she laughs and laughs so it's fun! Turkey and the straw - I am so glad my house isn't filled with cameras.
I've had a great few days spending lots of time with friends and which I love! Friday was spent with a dear friend we had tea/wine and a visit. We've been friends for a while now and I feel I can tell her anything - but really my life is quite boring compared to hers :) Then we were busy all weekend, Saturday was a catch up day and date night! Sunday I went to Winnipeg and went dress shopping with a great friend, we haven't known each other for too long but we are very similar and I know I can trust her with everything/anything! I am in her wedding and as much as I hate dress shopping it turned out well all dresses were found and I left not feeling huge like I usually do, infact my perception of myself is very skewed! Monday my husband went out. Tuesday was not a good night but Wednesday we had a date night again. Which bring us to today and we have friends coming over for tea/coffee/beer, Friday again friends are coming over for beer. My parents are coming out on Saturday and bringing my great uncle bob to meet A - he hasn't met her yet and I am excited. I have many memories of my uncle, but the one that always sticks out is when he used to chase me around when I was little threatening to spit chew (tobbacco stuff he used to chew and spit) in my hair. My hair was blonde, very blonde and he always told me it would turn it black.....Yes I know I do still love the man:) My aunt would defend me and we would go back to baking homemade buns. Sunday is up in the air, but we might go see a little baby and although my baby is only 5 months old, she seems big compared to other babies:)
Sunday, 24 February 2013
Marriage
It has been a long week!
My husbands family started doing an annual weekend away for all of us, this is the 2nd year. It was just as disorganised (maybe even more so) than last year but I guess when you have 10 of us all together it is to be expected. This year we each had our own space to retreat too and that was a blessing.
I am not going to go into the positive and negatives about this weekend, as others may read this and I don't want to hurt peoples feelings and today I would hurt peoples feelings. I am sure it's just the mood I am in.
Marriage is hard, not easy and I think people give up to easily, but how long do you try to make it work. How long before you and your partner begin resenting each other, how long do you fight before your children pick up on it.
This weekend really made me look at our relationship and think these thoughts. The last year has been tough on us, in part because I think some extended family problems are coming into our relationship - even though we have nothing to do with it. It all comes down to the way people make my husband feel, and they way our children are being treated. We then fight about it, we try to talk about it and then those resentment feelings come into play.
Maybe it's the people we are around, we are friends with 4 different couples who are discussing divorce or are attempting to make things work, so it puts you in that frame of mind......
My husbands family started doing an annual weekend away for all of us, this is the 2nd year. It was just as disorganised (maybe even more so) than last year but I guess when you have 10 of us all together it is to be expected. This year we each had our own space to retreat too and that was a blessing.
I am not going to go into the positive and negatives about this weekend, as others may read this and I don't want to hurt peoples feelings and today I would hurt peoples feelings. I am sure it's just the mood I am in.
Marriage is hard, not easy and I think people give up to easily, but how long do you try to make it work. How long before you and your partner begin resenting each other, how long do you fight before your children pick up on it.
This weekend really made me look at our relationship and think these thoughts. The last year has been tough on us, in part because I think some extended family problems are coming into our relationship - even though we have nothing to do with it. It all comes down to the way people make my husband feel, and they way our children are being treated. We then fight about it, we try to talk about it and then those resentment feelings come into play.
Maybe it's the people we are around, we are friends with 4 different couples who are discussing divorce or are attempting to make things work, so it puts you in that frame of mind......
Sunday, 10 February 2013
I can't do it all
What a ride it has been! I've been able to hold two new babies - I love babies, spend time with friends and watch my kids bond. I believe more time in life should be spent this way.
I have been given the opportunity to teach at a local college and I am not sure. I want to do it. I am really interested in promoting learning, but I am not sure if the timing is right. Especially since the time I am spending with my girls is so precious.
I have to keep telling myself I can't do it all....................
I have been given the opportunity to teach at a local college and I am not sure. I want to do it. I am really interested in promoting learning, but I am not sure if the timing is right. Especially since the time I am spending with my girls is so precious.
I have to keep telling myself I can't do it all....................
30 things #2
Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears
1) Dentist
When I was younger I went to a dentist who was very well known. Unfortunatley he was having a bad day when I went in to fix a small cavity and wasn't focused. He began working on a healthy tooth without any freezing. I was screaming asking him to stop because I was in a lot of pain. He stopped after what felt like hours, although I am sure it was only a few minutes looked at me and said "stop crying you are fine, I'll give you a minute but then we have to get that tooth fixed". When he came back he realized he was on the wrong side of my mouth, and had not put any freezing in any where. He said "sorry" froze me and proceded to work. From this moment on I have been scared to go to the dentist. Lucky for me I have found an amazing dentist who has been very accomodating and helpful and supportive during all my dental procedures
2) Being alone
My parents weren't able to have more than one child. This is terrifying to me. I realize many people with siblings don't always see the postivies, but when you are an only child the positives of having siblings are strong. I don't have other family to get togehter with for holidays (yes we have a large extended family and I am sure they will include me, but it's not the same as sibling holiday traditions).
3) Right now it's figuring out a way to not feel divided or burning out
I am not sure how to show my love for family, friends and work without burning out. This fear has always been here, however, continues to grow as I have two beautiful children, many friends that I have to go weeks without talking to, aging parents, and great husband, in-laws - that are going to need help and I'm not sure if we will be the ones there, a job I love (but even that job divides me into different sections). At times I am at my breaking point and I'm not sure what to do.
1) Dentist
When I was younger I went to a dentist who was very well known. Unfortunatley he was having a bad day when I went in to fix a small cavity and wasn't focused. He began working on a healthy tooth without any freezing. I was screaming asking him to stop because I was in a lot of pain. He stopped after what felt like hours, although I am sure it was only a few minutes looked at me and said "stop crying you are fine, I'll give you a minute but then we have to get that tooth fixed". When he came back he realized he was on the wrong side of my mouth, and had not put any freezing in any where. He said "sorry" froze me and proceded to work. From this moment on I have been scared to go to the dentist. Lucky for me I have found an amazing dentist who has been very accomodating and helpful and supportive during all my dental procedures
2) Being alone
My parents weren't able to have more than one child. This is terrifying to me. I realize many people with siblings don't always see the postivies, but when you are an only child the positives of having siblings are strong. I don't have other family to get togehter with for holidays (yes we have a large extended family and I am sure they will include me, but it's not the same as sibling holiday traditions).
3) Right now it's figuring out a way to not feel divided or burning out
I am not sure how to show my love for family, friends and work without burning out. This fear has always been here, however, continues to grow as I have two beautiful children, many friends that I have to go weeks without talking to, aging parents, and great husband, in-laws - that are going to need help and I'm not sure if we will be the ones there, a job I love (but even that job divides me into different sections). At times I am at my breaking point and I'm not sure what to do.
Tuesday, 5 February 2013
30 things #1
20 things about myself.
This is going to be tough since I did this for my first blog post, but here goes:
1) I am older than my husband - this almost kept me from continuing a relationship with him, I am sure glad love conquered this :)
2) I love children, all children and look forward to spending time with friends that have children, the neighbours children and doing children related activities (I think it's because I am a big kid at heart)
3) I am easily intimidated
4) I had an amazing relationship with both of my grandparents (who have all passed on) and I hope my children will have a great relationship with their grandparents
5) I love bike ridding
6) Weddings always make me cry
7) A treat for me is a blizzard or a pedi-cure, although I love cheesecake as well
8) My favourite toy as a child was a toy farm
9) I love music
10) I play the piano
11) I love baking cupcakes - hate making cookies
12) I have a fear of the dentist and they need to give me lorazapam if they need to do work so I can relax - it stems from a childhood dentist who once didn't freeze my mouth and started working on a tooth.
13) I love to cook
14) I like to plan, my calender is always marked up because I like to look back to see what has happened.
15) My dog is a member of our family, and is treated like that he gets a special b-day supper just like everyone else
16) I love fire - candlelight, bonfires, fireplaces
17) I like going to psychics, I don't believe them, but I really enjoy the experience I have a few friends that indulge me in this activity
18) I love playing badminton, but am not confident enough to join rec league, and I really enjoy my pj evenings.
19) I love chocolate chip cookie dough
20) Christmas is a special time for me and I am looking forward to teaching my kids to feel the same joy and happiness. We watch Christmas shows/movies from December 1st to December 31st. I love looking at lights, I love carols. Christmas makes me giddy.
bonus - I love tilt-a-whirls I laugh until I think I am going to pee my pants
This is going to be tough since I did this for my first blog post, but here goes:
1) I am older than my husband - this almost kept me from continuing a relationship with him, I am sure glad love conquered this :)
2) I love children, all children and look forward to spending time with friends that have children, the neighbours children and doing children related activities (I think it's because I am a big kid at heart)
3) I am easily intimidated
4) I had an amazing relationship with both of my grandparents (who have all passed on) and I hope my children will have a great relationship with their grandparents
5) I love bike ridding
6) Weddings always make me cry
7) A treat for me is a blizzard or a pedi-cure, although I love cheesecake as well
8) My favourite toy as a child was a toy farm
9) I love music
10) I play the piano
11) I love baking cupcakes - hate making cookies
12) I have a fear of the dentist and they need to give me lorazapam if they need to do work so I can relax - it stems from a childhood dentist who once didn't freeze my mouth and started working on a tooth.
13) I love to cook
14) I like to plan, my calender is always marked up because I like to look back to see what has happened.
15) My dog is a member of our family, and is treated like that he gets a special b-day supper just like everyone else
16) I love fire - candlelight, bonfires, fireplaces
17) I like going to psychics, I don't believe them, but I really enjoy the experience I have a few friends that indulge me in this activity
18) I love playing badminton, but am not confident enough to join rec league, and I really enjoy my pj evenings.
19) I love chocolate chip cookie dough
20) Christmas is a special time for me and I am looking forward to teaching my kids to feel the same joy and happiness. We watch Christmas shows/movies from December 1st to December 31st. I love looking at lights, I love carols. Christmas makes me giddy.
bonus - I love tilt-a-whirls I laugh until I think I am going to pee my pants
Tuesday, 29 January 2013
Schedules
I think it always happens this way! Life!!!
For the last few weeks my calender/schedule has been empty. I start to make plans and boom it's crazy. I really just want a happy medium. I have two weeks of things and then empty. I need these empty times to decompress, but then the same thing will happen. I need to break out of this pattern.
So the Healthy You Challenge has been going well, except for the damn chocolate chips. Every day I eat chocolate chips and every day I get a big 0 for the category of no treats. I know there are worse things I could indulge in, but really I want this. I want to be successful with the ultimate goal of changing my lifestyle to be healthy and to reach my pre-pregnancy weight. I should be grateful, I didn't gain as much as others considering for 9 months I wasn't able to exercise or walk or really anything, but I am not losing the weight very quickly and I am out of shape. I did a diet Ideal Protein in the past it was successful, but I'm not ready yet to start that, I know I need to be ready or it won't be successful either. I also need to be in a better financial position to start that diet.
Tonight I am having a date with my husband. We aren't doing anything fancy, just us time once the kids go to bed, but I need these nights. I need them to connect these nights are far and few between. My husband is out a lot he plays hockey which is great, but means that I am home most nights, the odd night he doesn't have hockey I try to make plans with friends but it doesn't always work out.
Time to finish laundry and start supper. Bored yet???? My life really isn't that interesting
For the last few weeks my calender/schedule has been empty. I start to make plans and boom it's crazy. I really just want a happy medium. I have two weeks of things and then empty. I need these empty times to decompress, but then the same thing will happen. I need to break out of this pattern.
So the Healthy You Challenge has been going well, except for the damn chocolate chips. Every day I eat chocolate chips and every day I get a big 0 for the category of no treats. I know there are worse things I could indulge in, but really I want this. I want to be successful with the ultimate goal of changing my lifestyle to be healthy and to reach my pre-pregnancy weight. I should be grateful, I didn't gain as much as others considering for 9 months I wasn't able to exercise or walk or really anything, but I am not losing the weight very quickly and I am out of shape. I did a diet Ideal Protein in the past it was successful, but I'm not ready yet to start that, I know I need to be ready or it won't be successful either. I also need to be in a better financial position to start that diet.
Tonight I am having a date with my husband. We aren't doing anything fancy, just us time once the kids go to bed, but I need these nights. I need them to connect these nights are far and few between. My husband is out a lot he plays hockey which is great, but means that I am home most nights, the odd night he doesn't have hockey I try to make plans with friends but it doesn't always work out.
Time to finish laundry and start supper. Bored yet???? My life really isn't that interesting
Monday, 28 January 2013
Life
Let's ponder life for a moment. Life is something to be treassured and something that many people take for granted. Since having children it is crazy how fast you realize time goes, and how much you try to do in a short period of time.
Growing up I knew my family loved me, they loved me unconditionally and that no matter what I did they would love me. This is what I want for my girls. I want them both to feel unconditional love and know that regardless of who they are, what they choose to do we will always be on their side and be thier number one fans. How do you do this? Do you have dates with your children? I would love some ideas?
My parents have started a tradition with my oldest of taking her for holidays. I love this for many reasons, I love that they want to be involved in her life, and it gives us an opportunity to have 1-1 time with our other daughter. I hope to continue this tradition of once a month or so they take one of our children and every third time they take both (actually all three we include the dog) this will give my husband and I a chance to have our alone time even if we don't do anything I think it's important to have quality time together. What do you do to keep your marriage alive and well?
Growing up I knew my family loved me, they loved me unconditionally and that no matter what I did they would love me. This is what I want for my girls. I want them both to feel unconditional love and know that regardless of who they are, what they choose to do we will always be on their side and be thier number one fans. How do you do this? Do you have dates with your children? I would love some ideas?
My parents have started a tradition with my oldest of taking her for holidays. I love this for many reasons, I love that they want to be involved in her life, and it gives us an opportunity to have 1-1 time with our other daughter. I hope to continue this tradition of once a month or so they take one of our children and every third time they take both (actually all three we include the dog) this will give my husband and I a chance to have our alone time even if we don't do anything I think it's important to have quality time together. What do you do to keep your marriage alive and well?
Tuesday, 22 January 2013
Family
You know the saying - everything seems to happen all at once well that is my life right now.
Well let me tell you, we had plans to renovate our bathroom and the kids and I were going to go away for at least 4 days of the rennos. Unfortunately my safe haven came down with the flu, so that left us at home in the midst of bathroom rennovations, our ceiling getting painting and our dryer breaking down. Add old pipes that needed changing, dog sitting and people coming and going you have chaos!
I have very supportive parents who came out this past weekend and helped to get my life back under control. House was cleaned top to bottom, bathroom was finished, I got a much needed break and my kids were spoiled as was the dog we are dog sitting.
My question today is how do people do it who don't have supportive parents. Are parents of girls more supportive than boys? If you come from a family of more children do parents play favorites? I know a number of families and friends where parents aren't as supportive - how/why does it work like this?
I don't think I'll ever find an solid "ahh moment or answer" that I am looking for, but for now I will be grateful for the family I was born into the friends I have made and the life that I have :)
Well let me tell you, we had plans to renovate our bathroom and the kids and I were going to go away for at least 4 days of the rennos. Unfortunately my safe haven came down with the flu, so that left us at home in the midst of bathroom rennovations, our ceiling getting painting and our dryer breaking down. Add old pipes that needed changing, dog sitting and people coming and going you have chaos!
I have very supportive parents who came out this past weekend and helped to get my life back under control. House was cleaned top to bottom, bathroom was finished, I got a much needed break and my kids were spoiled as was the dog we are dog sitting.
My question today is how do people do it who don't have supportive parents. Are parents of girls more supportive than boys? If you come from a family of more children do parents play favorites? I know a number of families and friends where parents aren't as supportive - how/why does it work like this?
I don't think I'll ever find an solid "ahh moment or answer" that I am looking for, but for now I will be grateful for the family I was born into the friends I have made and the life that I have :)
Saturday, 12 January 2013
Liberated
You know what is liberating is know that I can write anything and that no one is reading it. I can say what I want and put it out there and not feel bad about it. This is something I have a problem with. I always analyse what I say, I worry constantly about what I say and it offending someone unless I am drunk! Some new friends worry I'm not sharing enough really I'm getting there, I am thinking, slowly opening up, and trying not to offend.
I have friends whom are very opinionated and aren't afraid to share. The funny thing is that if you know my family at all I was raised by a man that will tell it as it is for the most part, but in the next breath grin and chew the sides of his mouth off. I love watching him - knowing that I am exactly like him. Actually we are like a volcano we can control our opinions for a long time, but then we erupt and then it is back to a slow simmering volcano. But once we erupt the over flow of lava (guilt) is terrible that is all I focus on and I can't get it out of my brain.
That's the problem with being me I think and think!
Scratch that I am starting a healthy you challenge on Monday and one of the challenges is to put your not so great qualities into a positive.
So it's not a problem it is a quality of mine that has many positives with a few negatives on the side. My brain never shuts off I think this is a great quality it has helped me to solve many dilemmas on my own and has kept me sane although truth be told it's the quality that is going to send me over the edge as well :)
I have friends whom are very opinionated and aren't afraid to share. The funny thing is that if you know my family at all I was raised by a man that will tell it as it is for the most part, but in the next breath grin and chew the sides of his mouth off. I love watching him - knowing that I am exactly like him. Actually we are like a volcano we can control our opinions for a long time, but then we erupt and then it is back to a slow simmering volcano. But once we erupt the over flow of lava (guilt) is terrible that is all I focus on and I can't get it out of my brain.
That's the problem with being me I think and think!
Scratch that I am starting a healthy you challenge on Monday and one of the challenges is to put your not so great qualities into a positive.
So it's not a problem it is a quality of mine that has many positives with a few negatives on the side. My brain never shuts off I think this is a great quality it has helped me to solve many dilemmas on my own and has kept me sane although truth be told it's the quality that is going to send me over the edge as well :)
Saturday Night
Dear blog,
Saturday night and what am I doing.....enjoy a tall glass of coke - I hate pop, but every once and awhile I enjoy the carbonation of pop, listening to the hum of the dishwasher - yes that's right I said dishwasher; I always use it if we have company, listening to the hum of the dryer, and debating on washing the floors.
We are in the middle of bathroom rennos. This room - the smallest room in the house had better be worth all the time that has been spent on it and the disturbance it has created in the house. I think my children are like me. They like routine, when things are not in routine they both react in both positive and negative ways, but react. That is me. I love entertaining, planning but once the time is here and after about 15 minutes, I am done. I can't handle it, I am ready for a melt down. Unfortunately I hold it in and then erupt....remember I am like a volcano!
Monday I start the Healthy You Challenge. This challenge involves a list of things that have point values - examples include taking a vitamin, working out, making time for friends, being positive with one self, eating fruit, eating vegetables. Etc, bonus points if you spend quality time with your husband, bonus points if you spend bonding time with children (reading, cuddling). You tally up the points per day, and then per week. Depending on the number of points you receive per week you get a weekly cash prize (my husband is paying up) this cash prize money is to be used as a treat for yourself. This is an 8 week challenge, the goal is that after 8 weeks this becomes your lifestyle - I'll let you know.
I feel like I should be talking about important things, like the things I hear on the news - but I have a confession I hate the news, I try my best not to watch it the news brings me down. I don't understand the bill that first nations people are protesting - I have not researched it so I am not able to be for or against and until I research it I won't state an opinion as it would be judgemental and ignorant (I wish more people would take this approach), I cry over the missing dogs, the murders....no comment, and don't get me started on the Phoneix Sinclair trial this gets me down - I can't read about it, or even hear about it. My mind always goes to the "How can people like this have children so easily, but yet I want more and yet it is so hard" One thing I will never understand.
I am not sure what direction this blog is going to take but for now I am enjoying writing, I enjoying putting my thoughts into words so we'll plug along and see where the words fall.
Saturday night and what am I doing.....enjoy a tall glass of coke - I hate pop, but every once and awhile I enjoy the carbonation of pop, listening to the hum of the dishwasher - yes that's right I said dishwasher; I always use it if we have company, listening to the hum of the dryer, and debating on washing the floors.
We are in the middle of bathroom rennos. This room - the smallest room in the house had better be worth all the time that has been spent on it and the disturbance it has created in the house. I think my children are like me. They like routine, when things are not in routine they both react in both positive and negative ways, but react. That is me. I love entertaining, planning but once the time is here and after about 15 minutes, I am done. I can't handle it, I am ready for a melt down. Unfortunately I hold it in and then erupt....remember I am like a volcano!
Monday I start the Healthy You Challenge. This challenge involves a list of things that have point values - examples include taking a vitamin, working out, making time for friends, being positive with one self, eating fruit, eating vegetables. Etc, bonus points if you spend quality time with your husband, bonus points if you spend bonding time with children (reading, cuddling). You tally up the points per day, and then per week. Depending on the number of points you receive per week you get a weekly cash prize (my husband is paying up) this cash prize money is to be used as a treat for yourself. This is an 8 week challenge, the goal is that after 8 weeks this becomes your lifestyle - I'll let you know.
I feel like I should be talking about important things, like the things I hear on the news - but I have a confession I hate the news, I try my best not to watch it the news brings me down. I don't understand the bill that first nations people are protesting - I have not researched it so I am not able to be for or against and until I research it I won't state an opinion as it would be judgemental and ignorant (I wish more people would take this approach), I cry over the missing dogs, the murders....no comment, and don't get me started on the Phoneix Sinclair trial this gets me down - I can't read about it, or even hear about it. My mind always goes to the "How can people like this have children so easily, but yet I want more and yet it is so hard" One thing I will never understand.
I am not sure what direction this blog is going to take but for now I am enjoying writing, I enjoying putting my thoughts into words so we'll plug along and see where the words fall.
Thursday, 10 January 2013
My 1st Post
So I've decided to try my hand at blogging! Not sure what to write about or where to start but I believe that I have interesting thoughts and that others should venture into my brain once and awhile.
I think for my first post I will do a list of random things so you get to know me:
1) I am an only child - I hated this growing up, I always wanted to have someone to share my toys with, my thoughts and dreams. Honestly I still hate this, who shares the same worries I have about my parents
2) I love my job and feel that I make a difference. I feel I really excel at my job
3) I have two beautiful children and one baby boy angel
4) I have experienced a tragedy that I don't think anyone should have to ever experience and one of my biggest fears is that my girls will also experience this tragedy.
5) I love washing dishes - it relaxes me
6) I believe in god, but I am not sure how I feel about religion. I live in a very religious community and at times feel we don't fit in, however, I am not an athiest, I feel that many "church goers" are judgemental. I love my family Sundays and feel that instead of listening to a sermon we are living it!
7) My dog is a member of our family and is spoiled
8) I have struggled with weight my whole life.
9) I am not very technical - I don't own an I phone, I pad, I pod, etc......
10) I love swimming, camping, reading, being outdoors in the summer. I don't like winter
11) I have low self-esteem, but not everyone would know that I try to come across as very confident
12) I love crafty people, and try to be crafty sometimes I get lucky
13) I hate going to bed alone
14) I love my friends dearly and tressure friendships even once the friendship has run its course
15) I have a temper - just ask my husband
16) I love being pampered
17) I want to join or be in a book club - I will start one this year
18) I have a great relationship with my parents! I really enjoy spending time with them
19) I hate living in mess. My house is always clean
20) Not sure if blogging is for me.........
Stay tuned to see if I return!
I think for my first post I will do a list of random things so you get to know me:
1) I am an only child - I hated this growing up, I always wanted to have someone to share my toys with, my thoughts and dreams. Honestly I still hate this, who shares the same worries I have about my parents
2) I love my job and feel that I make a difference. I feel I really excel at my job
3) I have two beautiful children and one baby boy angel
4) I have experienced a tragedy that I don't think anyone should have to ever experience and one of my biggest fears is that my girls will also experience this tragedy.
5) I love washing dishes - it relaxes me
6) I believe in god, but I am not sure how I feel about religion. I live in a very religious community and at times feel we don't fit in, however, I am not an athiest, I feel that many "church goers" are judgemental. I love my family Sundays and feel that instead of listening to a sermon we are living it!
7) My dog is a member of our family and is spoiled
8) I have struggled with weight my whole life.
9) I am not very technical - I don't own an I phone, I pad, I pod, etc......
10) I love swimming, camping, reading, being outdoors in the summer. I don't like winter
11) I have low self-esteem, but not everyone would know that I try to come across as very confident
12) I love crafty people, and try to be crafty sometimes I get lucky
13) I hate going to bed alone
14) I love my friends dearly and tressure friendships even once the friendship has run its course
15) I have a temper - just ask my husband
16) I love being pampered
17) I want to join or be in a book club - I will start one this year
18) I have a great relationship with my parents! I really enjoy spending time with them
19) I hate living in mess. My house is always clean
20) Not sure if blogging is for me.........
Stay tuned to see if I return!
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